Trusting

Well well well, hasn't it been a while since I showed my pretty little face? I know. Please forgive me. However, between graduation, moving away from Abilene, moving to Midland, vacation, and now the job search, it has been CRAAAAAAAzy!

Today marks one month since graduation day. Although it has been quite busy, the last week or so has allowed for quite a bit of down time for me. This has been so different for me. Especially in one specific area. Okay, more than one specific area, but I digress. I have started journaling recently. Now you may be thinking, "you're 27 and you have never journaled before?" Well, to answer that question, yes, yes I have. We could have quite the little campfire with the various journals I have purchased and attempted to write in. However, it was always in my mind that I needed to make my journals really great, just in case anyone ever found them and wanted to publish them. Having said that, it would be inevitable that they would only be published if I had done something great, or, much more likely, had died some unfortunate death. I am still alive, and nothing has happened to me that was too phenomenal, so all of my previous journal entries were lame and quite honestly, very very fake.

One area that is really getting a lot of focus right now in my journal is my asking God to show me that he is worth trusting. My head knows that it is true, that He is. But I see and know how my relationships with people play out and I truly believe that it mirrors also my mistrust in God. If I am really honest, I think this is something that I have always dealt with - or at least since my faith became personal. I could go into a lot of detail on this, but there was a time when I prayed more earnestly than ever for something. And although now that I am on the other side and can say that I know it was best that that something did not get answered in the way I was truly praying for it to be answered, trust was lost in the Lord.

So now I feel as though I am on this journey, working my was through a treacherous desert, testing the elements to see if maybe I've been wrong this whole time. Maybe there is something there that is worth trusting. Maybe God was worth trusting all along.

I don't really have all of this worked out yet in my head, or on paper, so I am sure that this is very fragmented. I believe firmly that I was brought to Midland for a reason, and I am beginning to believe that I think the reason was Him. To meet with Him and to see that He can be trusted. I want a heart change while living here. So although I am growing frustrated with not yet being employed, today (after another 'no' to a job interview) it just felt as though this down time is meant for me to be spending time getting to know Him. So.....that's what I working on.

I hope you will join me as I go on this journey.

Road trip!

Tara, Elizabeth and Kelsey

Kelsey and I set out for San Angelo this week with our friend Tara for an afternoon of inspiration and shopping. One last trip before we all graduate in two weeks! Our goal was to find dresses for our graduation banquet. We had a great time and it is hard to believe that our two years together is just about over. Hopefully this was the first of many Wildflower outings that will take place in the future.

Our first stop was a snazzy vintage resale shop with furniture and clothes, complete with a wine bar and music venue and your favorite board games.

Tara and Kelsey carrying our finds back to the car

Oh, and we did find dresses!

The shops in San Angelo are surprisingly creative and unique! We had such a fun time!

Hey Ladies!!

Hello there lovely ladies! Kelsey here. Just wanted to welcome you to what is going-to-be a wonderful place to share what we are learning and dreaming in our own lives as well as hoping for in your lives as well!!

More to come on who Elizabeth and I actually are.....stay tuned!

new adventure!

Well, here goes, Kelsey! I'm feeling pretty excited about this little adventure we are dreaming up.

To the Wildflower Sisterhood!